relieved.

there’s freedom in the name of Jesus, indeed i could fully comprehend and understand the whole meaning and thoughts to this. simply when I let go, and let God in. It’s pretty hard to move on in life and even move forward when we have a great big burden and hidden past sin that still affects and holds you back. Find relief, seek Godly counsel and allow God to bring people in to nurse our hearts.

This i told Jen: one day, i will share my story and my past proudly not because it is glorious, but because God deserves the highest credit for the change in my life.

Without God, i dont think i would let go. Without His love that holds me on, I would have given up on life. Without His grace, I would have fallen into condemnation. Without His mercy, I wouldnt pick myself up.

God is so good.

You, anyone reading.. if you find yourself struggling to live on, to get out of a sin or a habit. let me tell you, there are always problems and pitfalls, but it’s all about whether you are determined to get out of it and make the best out of life. You can simply because God enables and allow you to! Let go, Let God. Bring in Godly counsel, start from your direct shepherd/close friend or even God..

I found a greater cause of living, have you?

OffLINE

Ever wonder behind those cold and unchanged faces, what lies their emotions? What holds their future? I was taught by my lecturer that in the world, there are people who will backstab you, people who you cannot trust fully and they’ll hurt you HARD in the end. I grew tired of the world long time ago. I became wary of everyone, putting on my best front to strive for excellence to show others what I’ve got to be the best candidate for a certain position. but it still fall through.

Reality that I learnt was this, there is no one that cares for you (Probably our families and certain close friends). I’ve went through many betrayed friendship, backstabbing friends as well as telltale friends. Until i understand, that humans have emotions. That all that people do unto us or what we do unto others is such that we want to hide a certain weakness in us. To groom ourselves to tiptop condition, but honestly, that isn’t YOU anymore.

Experiences made me grow and learn, until i understand something that someone offer me….

Are you tired of who you strive hard to be, but it ain’t you?
Are you weary of the experiences that made you lost trust in friendship?
Are you broken from deep inside?

Come, “all those who are tired and weary, come to me and I will give you rest”. This is what I was offered and my perspective, my life shifted. because I trusted in a love that NEVER Fails!

come experience this my dear friends!! 🙂

7-9pm, Nexus Auditorium @ Cuppage plaza (Beside centerpoint) [[22nd MAY 2010!]] see you there!!

SEED 2010!

SEED Camp 2010 is really an awesome camp as our God is in the house! Unlike other camps where we lose our voices due to screaming for our teams only, but we scream for the Lord is with us! We scream for our God is worthy of all praises! WOOT! it’s been 2 days since the camp is over, but yet i’m not gonna let go of all that I’ve learnt for it’s after the camp then it’s the true challenge! it’s been a tiring 2 days after camp since i fell ill! Physically i’m drained out, but spiritually i’m bouncing and hyped up for what is to come! Exciting things like CG (Jovey our new convert joining!) MCG (Sarah’s visitor coming!) and i heard my peeps meeting up with contacts as well as im meeting my contacts out as well! The real test begun, more challenges will come but i know, as long as we persevere! The Lord will ALWAYS deliver us! Let’s not give up in doing what is right and pleasing before the Lord man! For our identity is the Child of GOD. and our origin is in God! The creator, the alpha & the Omega, Beginning and the end! Let’s take heart in who God is, for He have overcome the world!

God’s heartbeat is clear – lives is the price paid by the blood of Jesus. Everything boils down to the salvation of man. During this 3 days, God’s vision for me (Even before camp) got clearer and clearer, and it rooted down to this – God’s promises to prosper abraham in the old testament and His decendants still stands till today – all the way from issac, to jacob. Likewise, this is still overflowing in our lives today – that God wants to prosper the generation in His everlasting covenant. From the time Jesus appointed the 12 disciples, God already have in mind to have a plan to see His people being brought back to Him. Likewise now, we are the appointed disciples – we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us. Yet, on the other hand we might have other concerns of how can we do all things. But the thing is – We need to see possibilities in the impossibilities first then we can accept the impact of witnessing the extrodinary!

Another thing i took back from camp is this – the 4 types of seed. Many seeds are planted, some falls away, some are rooted shallow  the soil, some are overcrowded by weeds and others are growing strongly in te good soil. Which do we belong to? I was really burdened with the mentioning of those unresponsive heart. It saddens me that even thought the truth at the end of the day is that people knows God is the only way but refuse to turn to God due to pride, and misconception of who God is. Think about it, are there already people with unresponsive hearts around you? What we need to do is not to shun away from them as their persecutions are strong, but to soften their hearts with the empowerment and the love of God. Showing them the biblical truths that God planted in us, and nuturing them, removing the misconception and giving them another chance to know God once again! Let’s not deny our given identity of God to impact and be a influence of the world.

If we ourself belongs to the worrisome and implusive, perhaps its time to shift our attention on God and remove the weeds & be patient to wait upon the Lord. I belong to this category too and i want to do something about it! To have daily devotion with the Lord and be patient to hear from God! yeaaa!

I’m really amazed by God who allow me to be used as well as my sheep to witness a worship evangelism! Doesnt need an altar call or even an special avenue, but where the Love of God is people can sense and the spirit will stir in the hearts! When we avail ourselves to believe that this life is a beloved life that God is chasing after, and when we shift our agenda to be God’s agenda, our perspective is changed. we’ll then give our very best, not because we want to see that life but we need to know God paid the same price for that person as well as for me and the others who are saved. No one is more worthy or less worthy of the Blood of Jesus.

I like what Pastor Jasmine said, “We may be the only bible that some people get to read in their life time” Are we dilligently showing the characters of God? Are we allowing people to witness the same goodness of God throughour lives? Sometimes people get misconception of God not because God isnt good, or because God is fake. But it’s because those who are carrying the name of the Lord failed to be a good testimony for the Lord’s name. Let’s not devalue or bring undue glory to God. Let’s be a good seed that brings forth good testimony and impact to lives around us!

I want to thank God for this camp, the committee, the volunteers, bizart and my CG. Esp, my CG. In the whole camp, i saw how much they gave their best to know new people even though they are not used to it, to initiate to serve others, to also do their best to communicate. During the challenge time, I sense that this is it – new lives are rising up. New people are rising up to really take their place. Not because of what i’ve said, what jen said or what the leaders said. But it’s the kind of message and nudging from Holy spirit.

Biz 2!! Let’s not bring undue glory to God, we’ve seen a life crossing e line of faith let’s not stop in doing what is pleasing to the Lord. These convictions will not be convictions untill we start to see it being flowed out into our daily lives and actions. What is so great about leaders like John C.Maxwell or Andy Stanley is not who they are, but in their hearts who they are living for, and who they are obeying in the process of maturing! Let’s live out the truths in courage for The Lord’s plan will always prevail!

it’s a long post of reflection hopefully it’ll leave a seed on whoever that comes across this webpage! =D

God bless!

Bizart 4;

Bizart 4;

time spent was was really great memories! Yes, we went through many ups and downs. I learnt alot and experienced alot with all of you! =) Yesterday spent time applying the teaching with my CG at KFC, we started to have open rebukes and open affirmations. =) it was a great time that we learnt to enhance one another and embracing our weaknesses by learning! Realise that all of us are actually appreciating each and everyone of us beyond words can express! want to affirm each of you here!

Pei Qi: For being such a supportive sheep by giving your input, encouraging me at times and spurring the group to grow together. I have seen you growing from someone who waits for people to lead you to someone who is trying and taking steps to learn how to lead others and spur others to grow! =) I thank God for  your love, your care and aunty-ness that allowed us to have fun throughout bizart 4! we’ll experience more in Biz 2 amen? =)

Dawn:
Wanna thank God for your love for the Lord and His people that makes you want to go the extra mile to grow, to learn and to commit into this cause together with us! I really appreciate your noise that brought forth alot of significant joy into the group! Continue to let your vision of having a design CG of 7 come to past! I believe that you’ll be a channel that God you to touch more creative people to influence the media industry! jiayou dawn!

Audrey:
I have seen you change from an ah lian, someone whom i shepherd will walk away, scold me, shout at me and stare till someone who willingly listen, seeks for Godly advices and allow room for changes in your life! The testimony about you having faith in God to go for camp and giving all you have for camp despite having no money to eat. I am really encouraged and you also witness how God miraculously blessed you abundantly after that! That is faith in God, trusting in the unseen and knowing Your God is a good and faithful God! continue to carry this faith and impart it to people who sees no hope in life, to place their trust in God alone! jiayou Audrey!

Lilin:
Have been throught quite alot of encounter with you, and realise that actually you’re someone who went through many stages of life and have alot of experiences etc! I really enjoy knowing you as a person listening to how much you want to do more for God, stepping out of the boat in faith to stay on and believe in God. Been through a whole experience which made us both know the bible alot more and I believe God have a plan for you for he’ve called you by name and wants to use you to influence globally! in TAS, touch more lives! see transformation and you’ll see more seeds goes into the world and influence the world! jiayou lilin!

michelle:
Hey michelle! continue to trust in the Lord and allow him to take you deeper into a tangible experience of His grace and love in your life! no one loves you beyond that blood of Jesus. He yearns to hold you and bring you to where he wants to lead you to. Stretch your hands out to Him and know that He alone is Your source Your hope and where You can put all of Your securities in. For God poured out His life for You, definitely He holds your life in His hands dearly! Jiayou michelle!

Want to really thank God for these people and i know you girls will influence much more in the new CG! jiayou dears!

P.S: Suppose to blog this on sunday! opps. haha!

exams is over!!

tiring day started with a 2hrs CRS paper, praying that i’ll pass WELL. Knowing that God is in control, casting all my worries, fears and anxiety to Him! had a great rest before meeting my sheep! thankful for that rest to refresh me man! =) met my sheep @ 18chefs. Had pasta~ wow, it’s really good atmosphere i would say. =) Great talk with Audrey with regards to the time before she convert till today, talked about convictions and our vision for the Lord! Our direction will fail without the vision in line, and the conviction to keep us true. =)

Pretty tired out, but cant seem to sleep! shall get some rest soon! (:

1 paper- strike!! 1 more to go =(

hello hello! (:

this picture was taken in the first few moment of 2010! gonna take this time to update on the paper that i took this morning! hoho God was really with me! To see me through, to see me be a blessing to my friends! spent quality time with my friends studying and taking bus to the interchange! The paper is relatively okay, but i spotted a few careless mistakes here and there! prayerfully will do well, with an A! =)

Met up with michelle, had a good catch up with her! pray that she’ll be able to experience much more of God and will know Him much more day by day! You know, God loves us. God loves each and everyone of us. Be it tom, harry, jane, mary, God doesnt show favouritism nor does he gives lesser love to anyone of us. Dont compare the love that you’ll experience in God, for the greatest indicator of love, is the crucification of Jesus, His begotted son. (:

Learned new guitar skills from HY! and he wrote nonsense on my notebook haha! but it was a great learning from him, gonna expand myself much more be it musically/personally/any other area, i want to do of an excellence, for God deserves this attitude of honoring Him! ”

Failure doesnt determine our future, Failure are stepping stones to success” similarly, it applies to our spiritual life. I realise sometimes it’s hard to get out of failures, hard to move on when we know that we’ve failed before. But think of this, that God’s grace allows us to know more of ourselves through failures, and God’s grace is enough to see us through to witness successes through perseverance. Let’s not give up doing what is good and right before the Lord, for it’ll reap us the eternal blessings in heaven!

Have you start to see lives as a blessing in your life? have you started to understand God chose us not to to love us, and not to love us by choosing us. His love isnt base on merit, selection or interviews. but it went through the calvary, to grace us that love that’ll grant us beyond what monetary value can measure. This is a reflection for myself as well, Joanne, continue to give your best to God, be it in school/family/ministries, God is consistant, God is real. Live it out, for we’re called to be the model of how Christ is like! (:

jiayou friends, brothers & sisters! no matter how, what, when – Jeremiah 33:3!

God loves you You YOU! (:

考试期中..

学生们不会为了金钱而烦恼，也不会为了工作而焦虑. 考试期间，是否会提心吊胆，或精神不定呢？我也是这样的。当考试的日期一天天的逼近，我会担心，真的好想快点考完它！=）

不论怎样，我都知道，我要考好，是因为我要荣耀主耶稣的名。身为基督徒，我带着的是神的安定，神的祝福给大家。我要让朋友们都知道，我的神是权威的！我的神是值得荣耀与赞美的！=)

hee, dont know why i’ll post in chinese, but hope that it’ll be a blessing unto the people around me! praying that God’s people during this period will shine like stars for God is worthy! let’s bring joy and hope in the lives of people – allowing God to use us to be a blessing to our friends and family! let’s not forget that by grace we’re saved, by His love we’re made new once again. keep sharing, keep going and keep moving into a new level of Faith in the One who can do greater thing than the us! The one living in us, is greater than the one in the world! =)

Persecuted, not struck down!

just an encouragement to all who are lost, weary and hurt, God is your healer today. Things may happen in your family that makes you detest your identity in the family, or things may happen with your group of friends that makes you resent the fact that you all shared the same memories before, or in a relationship, you just broke up with the other party despite the fact that 6 days ago, it’s valentines.

“Matthew 11:28 – come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest”

Has it occured to you what is actually rest? is it just getting enough sleep or full satisfaction in life that gives rest from the one who gives life? =)

Through this journey of knowing God, I’ve learnt alot, and discovered alot. many journey starts with by putting faith in what you understand. No one knows what it actually holds, but unless and untill you experience it yourself. This life with God is not a standard answer for all, it is neither a ‘worries-free’ journey. Infact, this journey is filled with testings, more uncertainties. But it comes along with strength from God to go through, and Faith in God to soar higher. I pray for all who are reading and yet to come to know God, He is a wonderful Father, experience His indescribable love today. =)

CNY + Blessings!

HELLO HELLO! 🙂

4th day of chinese new year! and i just spent my day with my crazy CG! eating steamboat and playing card games to eat more steamboat foood!! hahaha! Shall roughly post what actually happened this few days for Chinese New Year!

New Year Eve:
Wow, it’s a saturday and I cant imagined that I actually stayed at home! hee, no la no service ma! felt weird though!! Met up with Geckting and shirley (she PS us!) Prissy to do some last minute shopping before we have our reunion lunch/dinner! Bought new stuffs and taught geck how to do make up!! She’s prettty now~ HAHA! People came, had KTV till midnight and funny enough, whilst people are enjoying new year eve, I was actually in the mood to study! When there wasnt anyone, I couldnt study! it explained alot! I think i study better with noise!!

1st day:
I actually stayed at home the whole day to wait for people to come my house! it’s actually a fruitful day with my Father’s side relative visiting, and just sharing life, how we are in our different churches and how we are serving in different ministries etc! it was a great exchange! (FYI, my father’s side almost all are christian serving in church!=D)Not much of card games or playing but catching up rather! find myself rather old when they relate me to 20 years old~ But it’s good! shows that I matured alot physically! =)

Geck and Karen came at night and we actually chatted with my sister! =) Headed to Zhiyang’s house with Geck and shirls, reached and played a few rounds of mafia all the way to 2am!! gosh! but it was really good fellowshipping! =)

P.S: A GOOD NEWS ON 1ST DAY OF CNY! MY SISTER SAID “JIE, FIND ONE DAY BRING ME AND XUANXUAN TO YOUR CHURCH, WE WANT TO GO!!” PRAISE GOD!!!

2nd Day:
Second day was awoken by my super adorable aunt who came quite early, lugging her play station, set-up, playing puzzle bubble and shouting at the top of her voice – That woke me up!! Hee, she’s rather adorable! played playstation with cousin and spent great time with them too! challenged each other in puzzle bubble and deprieved my aunt from playing (FYI, she anyhow press the key when we are playing so that we will lose, and let her play!!>.<)

After that headed over to my 3rd aunt’s house (Mother’s side) and played with the kids! oh man! as i am playing with them, i felt pretty much like a care taker of kids age: “4, 5, 6, 9, 10, 11, 13, 15” literally 8 people man! they are really nonsensical but really innocent people! keep asking me to bring them to the playground, and need to run around, jump around hop around! after all those turning swirling, it’s really a break for me!! =D but yet i really enjoyed being carefree, spending time with them just to enjoy the process-it taught me to slow down my pace! 🙂

At night headed over to Nel’s place watched 2 cool movie! Ironman & Theone. quite outdated, but heee. I enjoyed! although it was pretty much blurified to me in the beginning! but it’s nice!! =) Had a great steamboat with the worship team! After that headed over to Peixin’s place for a few round of mahjong with rayna! =) great time spent with NP people as well! =)

3rd Day:
Headed over to my dad’s god-father place. It is a practice to go there yearly, but last year we didnt make it a point to go down to toa payoh. This time round we went, uncle aged. He’s 80+ now, senile and couldnt walk properly. My last impression of him was he telling me to study hard and visit him again he’ll make some cookies for me. Now, he doesnt even recognise me! it’s pretty sad thus, I prayed a prayer of blessing over him. Not letting him know though, he’s a non-believer. I know God is the Hope for him! =) did some house chores in his house and spent time with him, talking to him and giving my best to bless him! Thank God for this time and avenue to bless others!

After that headed over to Xman’s house for mahjong & ssteamboat with geck & shirls! fruitful! =)

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Really thank God for this new year break, for me to slow down, plan think and move even further ahead in future! next up: EXAMS! studied halfway, gonna study more later! jiayou to all who are going through this! ESP the year 1s! no worries, God is your strength, your stronghold, your provider, your deliverer! jiayou! =D

NOTE: CAMP FEE OF 130 BUCKS! REMEMBER TO PAY JOANNE! (TO ALL WHO ARE GOING TOO!!)

best friends

What a irritating day. It just felt so stupid, why should it all happen on this day? Argh, exams are coming, problems are stacking up and it’s an never ending work-unloading-process. Gosh, such a chore! Man, when will this end! I simply hate this days. So what if I am not the way you think I am? So what if you think that I cant be good? I just want to stay who I am right now. argh, why am i feeling so lousy all over again? Why do things revolve around the same issues all the time? When will it simply end?

i’m tired from running.
i’m tired from emo-ing.
i’m tired from tearing.
i’m tired from problems.

Can I choose to hide?

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Friends, at points of time when we are facing certain issues be it with our family, relationship or even with our closest friend. We feel tired all over again, we feel like screaming at the top of our voice all of the above that was mentioned. we simply feel like hiding away, away from people. I too, felt like screaming when i’m overloaded. I also felt like crying myself to sleep when i’m emo-ing.

But one thing that I know –  I have choices.

Choices to lift my burden to my bestest friend, choices to speak to my bestest friend when i feel like breaking down, choices to run to my bestest friend when i’m lost, choices to pick myself up because my bestest friend is with me, choices to live my life to the fullest for my best friend, choices to face the truth because that made my character, choices to be who I can be in my bestest friend’s sight.

What’s a friend to you? A friend – :

Someone who you’ll be able to reach in a phone call?
Someone who’ll rush to you when you need help?
Someone who will cheer you up when you are down?
Someone whom you’ll share things with and vice versa?

I have a super awesome friend, who’ll not just fulfill all of the above and also, my bestest awesome friend gave me life to live, love to carry on, hope to cling to – Thankyou God, thankyou Daddy.

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Any point of time that you feel real weak, helpless and utterly upset, just one word and He’s there – believe and speak to this friend. He’s my comforter not in words, but in action, in my life – He’s proven real! My God is alive!

Praying that you’ll come to know this God soon friend! =)